Showing Gratitude

Next week in addition to preparing my thesis defense, I am going to be writing the acknowledgement section of my thesis. Looking back on this journey, I realized that there are so many people to thank. If I were to include everyone it would be almost as long as the document itself. It has also been cool to look back at things. Every time I look back I tend to do it through rose coloured glasses. There are no longer term experiences (even terrible relationships, trips, or jobs) that don't eventually bring a smile to my face. Even the tough times I went through when losing vision in my right eye, I view them now as challenges that were not just present but integral.  Maybe I am the only one with this disposition, but I doubt it. Anyway, when reflecting on this, one of my friends gave me some advice on how to write my acknowledgements. They said to only thank significant contributing members and to professionally acknowledge personal relationships that are not family.

To me this seems weird. I was thankful for the advice but I respectfully have to disagree (sorry homie - I know we go back and you are going to be done soon, but still). I disagree for a few reasons.

First, no one you actually acknowledge will read your thesis outside of your committee (maybe) - and anyone directly involved in the projects. I read the the acknowledgement sections of only two people (a student that I was mentoring this year), and my old supervisor. I skipped past the acknowledgements and most of the parts of any other thesis I accidentally thought was a paper.

Second, a thesis, just like any long term project, is a single snapshot in a long time line. In this way it is kind of like a old yearbook, scrapbook, or photo. The acknowledgement section represents how you feel and who means a lot to you at the moment. In this way- it is better too just write and thank and show gratitude to those in your heart  in the moment. Those sentimental shout outs may evoke some stomach twists if the people you shout out break your heart, but when you revisit those words of gratitude it will likely serve as an honest reminder of the good times that once were. Don't think too much about it.


Lastly, it is the one part of your thesis where you don't have to be formal so why do it. I would say be true- thank everyone, thanks the cats in marseille (shout out anahid), thank the person reading it, shout out the sidewalks from keeping you off the streets. Be as thankful and as honest as you can- leave the formalities for the oscars and political speeches.

The Meetup

So I head out of my apartment into the hallway. Hmmm, the lights still don't work and half of the hallway to the exit door is under construction. It's got a damp and humid smell, even though it seems to be hot outside. I open up the door, and the sure enough the anticipated hot sun hits me directly on my face. To my surprise, clement was there already, accompanied by his red vespa.

"Hey man, what you sayin?" - Clem
"Nothing much fam, you been waiting long?" - me
"Don't even worry bout that, just grab this helmet and come with me, we gonna hit up the Macrina"- Clem
"Whoooaa this must be some scam you thought of homie... we eating in Bell Town?" - me
"Dawg, just grab the helmet, mans are hungry"- Clem

So we zip down from Fremont to Bell Town for breakfast. It is actually a pretty nice ride. If you're not on the back of a vespa. I think that was peak hipster level, plus hardly anyone in Seattle uses a Vespa so we got a lot of attention.

"We here"- Clem
"Damn, you got a reservation and everything? This must be really important" -me
"Aiight homie, let's eat" - Clem


We both get off the Vespa and walk into the Macrina Bakery. The place looks a lot more live than I remember. The smells of baked goods, bacon, eggs, and bread fill the air. We are greeted by this extremely attractive hostess who escorts us to our seat. After some playful chitchat she leaves us the menu. Little did I know this little get together was gonna turn into one of the most hectic weeks of my life. It all started when Clem asked:

"Man, you remember when you were a kid?"

You play different when you are keeping score.

The last week has been hectic, and I have slipped a little bit, I did keep writing but I found it much easier to reach for my pen and notebook than to write on the blog. However, I still feel like I am cheating on my New Year's resolution so I wanted to get back on it. So this week - I want to get back on it and make time to put the words from the various scraps of paper back onto the web (also this way I can move and refine what I wrote on paper to the big pages).

The first of which was a piece I wrote about keeping score: 

You play differently when you are keeping score. I used to hate this saying because it never offered a direction. You don't necessarily play better when you are keeping score. Usually games are also more fun when you're not. Over the last week of my own writing (aka slacking), I do realize however that not posting my thoughts in a way was not keeping score. My most productive times in any endeavour happened when I had a visual scoreboard. What is even more effective is having a scoreboard focused on meta-skills, like focused on thing I can do everyday or in the moment. As a Ph.D student , a scoreboard tracking the number of publications who get isn't gonna be that effective at keeping you on task- but I scoreboard on how much you wrote everyday will be. Spoiler alert is that my most effective scoreboards were ones focused on the pomodoro method. 


While it was fun to write on papers and when my laptop ran out of battery - it did feel different. So anyways, I am coming back online. 

Recovery

One thing is true with any goal you set. There will be setbacks. I experienced a small setback this week as work and life picked up and I couldn't escape to my computer to write a couple sentences. However, I am back at it, and I actually don't feel bad about it. My goal now is beat my last streak of days where I was able to write everyday. It is being able to better schedule myself and plan the content out ahead of time. Thinking about the recovery, and the potential I have to continue where I left off quickly alleviated any disappointment I had by not being able to put my thoughts into text this time around.

Some things I look forward to writing about are:

1. Recovery (check)

2. Progress using the pomodoro method

3. Fmri Analysis

4. Acknowledgements for my thesis 

5. Getting my own place in houston

6. Continuing the fictional story I started writing a couple weeks back

7. The boondocks comic strip



Let the writing continue.

The pomodoro technique

The pomodoro technique is a study technique developed by an italian engineer Francesco Cirillo in the 80s, but I'm pretty sure that the basis for the technique has been around for a long time. Basically the concept is that you set a timer, and work undistracted for the duration of that timer. This is followed by a short break, then another work session. You work on a task for four work sessions before taking a long break. Usually when beginning, I start with 15 minutes work sessions and 3 minute short breaks. I also write down questions and distractions and deal with them later. As I get better I stretch the sessions out to 25 minutes.

At various times in my life I have tried to use this technique and to varying degrees of success it has worked. For example it works well for thesis writing, paper writing, studying for tests (combined with some other methods like reviewing what you learned in the worm sessions) and data analysis. The technique does not work so well for me when reading, coding ( it's hard to break the flow) or learning new methods.

The hardest parts about implmenting the technique are:

1) remaining undistracted
2) sticking to the short break times

This brings me to my challenge for the upcoming week. I want to be able to carve out 12 pomodoro sessions of 20 minutes per day and stick with it!!

Peer-reviewed journal articles are the perfect business

Think about it. If you own a peer-reviewed journal I want to be you. If you explain the peer-review system to anyone outside of academia it doesn't make sense. In fact, it makes us look like suckers. Not just suckers but unjust pretentious suckers. In my ends we have a word for this, but I want to maintain positivity.

Here is what I mean, an overview: Scientist conduct research, put many hours into doing this research, piloting experiments, conducting field work etc... At the end, sometimes after years and many person-hours of work, an article reporting the results of the experiments is written and submitted to a scientific journal. The work is then reviewed by others in the field to ensure rigour and quality. The reviewers (who also work for free) provide anonymous comments to the authors (which is another huge issue- but for another time). If the reviewers think the article has merit, then revisions are completed and eventually the manuscript reaches a point where it can be accepted for publication (in the best of cases).

What happens next is what is funny. The journal, without supporting the work or the people who did the work, then publishes the work along and obtains copyright on the article. They then charge exorbitant subscription fees to institutions for access to the work. At this point only a few select people have access to the completed work in its final form. This is Genius! Think about it - reviewers, authors, and sometimes editors are not supported by the journal. While there are some costs associated with post-productions, delivery, and the maintenance of online submission and revision systems, I am willing to bet publishers still make a healthy profit. This is messed up.

What's even more messed up is that, in some cases researchers and students are largely supported by public funds- that means my work was paid for by taxpayers (through the school and scholarships). Therefore when I submit to a journal- the people who supported the work now have to pay again to see it. Furthermore, they want embargos on anything that is published containing the same work (like a thesis). And I almost got one! I've made up my mind however- forget your embargo son!!- I'mma let the people see what they paid for (don't worry I did some technical stuff so I'm protected- shout out to my law crew, and get at me).

New project: Life as a playlist- 2018

Okay, so our auditory and memory systems may be linked to memory. Although this might be a logical fallacy (see previous post) it is fun to think of your life in timelines. But what if you think of your life in terms of a playlist. When I listen to songs, I tend to remember situations that surrounded me when I was listening to that song. You put these songs together and you have a playlist of emotions that defines a time in your life. If you have access to a spotify/ streaming music service and wondered what my 2018 looked like - well here it is:


1. Know no better- major lazer

2. Run Up - major lazer

3. Rolex - Ayo and Teo

4. Thinking about you - Calvin Harris

5. Story of OJ - JayZ

6. To U - Skrillex and Diplo

7. Miss You - Tory Lanez

8. Slide- Calvin Harris

9. Angels - Chance the Rapper

10. Gods Plan - Drake

11. Congratulations - Post Malone

12. Freaky- Friday - lil dicky

13. Playin wit me - Kyle and Kehlani

14. Wrote my way out - Nas

15. I see fire - Ed Sheeran

16. No problems  - Chance the rapper

17. Do what I want - Lil Uzi Vert

18. Particula - major lazer

19. Lost- Major Lazer

20. Ikuyo- Kyle

21. Brocolli - DRAM

22. I spy - Kyle

23. Mixtape- Chance the rapper

24. In my feelings - Drake

25. Good life- Kanye West

26. Sunflower - Post Malone